11/27/11
Today I had to face a serious problem. High blood pressure & cholesteral, anxiety & depression, reflux disease, and obesity. Pills, pills, pills! I cannot believe it is me inside this afflicted body. How did this happen?
Well, most issues are hereditary, but drastically improving my diet, exercise, and prayer can and will improve these issues. God has opened my blinded eyes to my areas of neglect: eating too much processed foods and living a predominantly sedentary lifestyle. I am His temple for the Holy Spirit. I have not been a good steward of His temple. I have been a glutten for easy-access quick fixes for hunger/cravings resulting in a temporary fix with a consistant return of the desire. Eating unhealthy, nutrient-deficient-fillers (hidden sugar, fat, and additives) have only "fed" my sluggish, tired, unmotivated, unhealthy "obese" body. Improper diet and no exercise cause the condition I am in. No exercise = exhaustion and a foggy depression, and vice versa... a negative spiral of defeat.
Not only have I neglected God's temple, I have also neglected my husband by not keeping up with my household duties and exercised-toned body. When I met and married my handsome, younger, amazing, health-conscious Jerry, I was comfortable in my body, and I was filled with energy and joy. Baggy clothes, disheveled appearance, inconsistent cooking and a seemingly
comlplacent attitude are not what he deserves .... the best from me. My job has been
unacceptable. I have unintentionally abused his unconditional love and acceptance of me. His
vibrant, confident, healthy, neatly organized, slim wife has sadly vanished.
i am so afraid of professing permanent lifestyle changes, only to fall short...again!
However, FEAR is false evidence apppearing real.
So, starting in the morning;
I will get dressed to shoes.
I will take babysteps FLYing.
I will prepare healthy dinners.
I will exercise at least 15min.
I will begin decluttering the kids room.
I will pray and listen for God's words.
I will post on Craig's List as I can.
L
